what are u thinking of...

a world of cruelty

2009-07-12T21:07:00.003+08:00

Now i understand...The world of cruel animals..cunning..skimming..cold blooded... Just like a WAR scene..

People turning against one another...
Back Stabbing...
Masking...
The Gossipers..
The Pretender..
The Political blood field..

Its all just the environment i'm working in now...
A office full of friendly people, which is what i first thought when i just entered the company...
People were so nice, so kind and helpful.. So much of Humanity and warmthness is all i thought..

However, like the phrase people always says... Good things always comes to an end..

Its just all the mask everyone is putting on, behind that mask its all faces fill with cruelty and cold bloodedness..
When it comes to responsibility, no one is willing to admit their mistakes.
Its all about pushing blames, its all about finding the ways to keep yourself survive in this endless war.
But...so what you are the survival...
Even so you gain the whole world..but you are not realizing you are losing your own soul..
You are no longer the old you... you have already sip into the world that belongs to your own "kind".
There's no happiness you can find, no true friends, no true colleagues but enemies you have created.

I do not want to end up this way..
My mum is saying that i'm starting to changed.. selfish and self contained..
I want to change back to who i used to be...
I know i will be able to do so...
O God... you know every single things thats happening in our lives..
O God... give me your guidance O God... shun me from evil...
Hide me from the evil doers..
O dear God... Lead me not into temptation..

I commit everything in my life into your hand...
I know and believe you never fails to see us through in all obstacles in life...

Prayers and Sincerity does works..

2008-12-15T09:49:00.000+08:00

Last Tues…right after Devapali…my bro went to took his driving ltest…gosh both my mum and I were consistently praying for him get the licence he has working hard for…after a few times of trial…he’s very commited to get through and done with..
Right after his last failure he believe the only person he could rely and trust on would only be “HIM..our gracious God”..He started going to church very consistently hardly without fail…and commited his prayer to God…
And here it is…his test is finally here…
I was rather amazes how faithful he is…when he msg this …” Sis…I’m very nervous…pray for me…Tell Jesus..I Love him..I Love Jesus…!!!”…funny thou when I first saw it…I cant stop laughing to myself staring at it..haha…but thinking back he wasn’t that faithful to God…the last time…
God doesn’t works his ways on him…and he slowly works his love to my bro and touches him spiritually.
We always think it’s a miracle and God’s works that my bro passed his test…God helps him..making him first in the lane…cooling his bad temper and humbling him to the examiner..even after some scolding he’s still humbling “yes sir yes sir”..even when he knock onto the poles..haha…I believe the angels are there to hold on the pole and even knocking on a few times it miraculously it nv falls.
God sees him through the 1 hour of test and gave the tester the unfailing love and passing him even scolding my bro through the whole 1 hour of test…the examiner stills passed him.
Everyone in the family, esp my mum was the most delighted when she know he passed his licence..my mum has always been guilty of not providing my bro enough for him to get trough his licence like every other parents ccould..but now he gt his licence my mum could finally lighten her guilt.
After this…I do really believe no matter wad obstacles or trial you need to get through..
Praying not only is e way…but God oso sees your sincerity to him…once he sees the heart and faith you have for him…he will always bless and sees you through everything in life.

My D & D

2008-12-08T00:51:00.002+08:00

Hey people!!!

I need help with my company's D &D on FEb...
The theme is Hollywood movie stars...haha...
Could you guys helps me to think of something me and Jon could dressed up to meet this occasion.
We have thought about dressing up as Mr & Mrs Smith, but it seems like rather common.
Thought about Elvis & marilyn monroe but that silly goat shy to dress like tt..haha...
Could you guys help to crack ur brain for us..wohoho..
its gonna b fun...

Prayers...

2008-12-08T00:33:00.003+08:00

Its been long since i last blog, life is so hectic and busy nowadays. Time seems to pass just so fast with a blink of an eye, a new year is on its way drawing near.
I've adapted to the new company, new colleagues and a new working environment.
Like wad Val used to tell me before she left for her studies, the working environment out there isnt as what everyone would think when they just stepped into the society.
I've been opened up to all kinds of "faces", characteristics and "fakers".
Thou, at the very start life wasnt as easy to get adapted to it, but i believe only by prayers and faith in believing but not fearing God will never leave u at the ledge.
And definitely, God did sees me through and he even turn the table round for the worst situation i could ever get into. I just cant stop praising him, i know there are people who i've ever mention to on how great and loving this God is to us. But i know in my heart they will still doubt and not believe. However, i really wish they could encounter what i have been through which God did REALLY sees me through. He's just so real that for sure you know its him that is holding you on his palm tightly and not let you fall.
Lately, my dad isnt doing well with his health. But by faith and God's grace i believe he will definitely get through this obstacles, as both my mum and me we are truly puting all our heart into believing God's miraculous healing for him.
Be it our health, i also never fail to commit my carreer and even my entire life into him. knowing he will always have the best for us, and will always sees us through everything as promises he will made which will never ever be broken.
His love can never be comparable to human love, for he's never selfish in loving and sacrificing for us. And most importantly, he will definitely never ever break any of his promises he have for us.
Having to say all, i'll still keep on praying for the salvation of the non believer. By faith i know i will for sure to see that one day, these people will be touched spiritualy by this ever lasting and ever loving God.

Brand New Experience...

2008-10-04T10:17:00.012+08:00

The week before last week, as usual my company is holding the monthly bday bash...thn from the email they have organized a small outing...to view the 1st practice day of the F1!!!!!!! but due to overwhelming response there are only 50 tickets for grabs..thus, they decided to hold the lucky draw during the bday bash...wohohoh...it was nerve cracking...while awaiting for Collin Payne our HR director to draw out the names slowly...every name read was a relieve for everyone who was awaiting eager to go...
I close my eyes...i prayed..."oh God if its ur will for me to go...let my name be drawn..."
after opening my eyes...i heard my name..wohoho!!!...Praise God...haha...i gotta go...to the F1 practice race..hehe....I was so delighted...hehe...
I went online to gave a check on the details and place where
and here i am...waiting for the day to go eagerly...then days passed so fast..n it was the day..
the company actually gave us half day off to attend the function...
excitedly we walked from our building to the Area where is situated specially for CORPORATE BOOKING! aishey..cool isnt it..hehe...let me show you the SPECIAL PASS for the SPECIAL CORPORATE SUITE..hehe...tadaa!!

i know someone is envy...someone who called while i was attending the function..someone from indonesia ...hehe...lolx...not to worry..F1 is gonna be in singapore for 5 yrs..so every year there will be a race..so you can ask ya papa to buy air ticket cum F1 ticket for u to watch k..hehe...

Before going to the suite, we when around to take pictures and look at a few of antique cars on exhibits which i find it rather cute...

then we proceed to the different stalls for sourvenirs and i got all these...whohoho...there were many people..but luckily we are early...the race starts at 2pm but when we there people are starting to come in and thus, its kinda crowded..but luckily...the area we are heading are not as crowded for its only permitted to COPORATE PASS holders..hehe...

let me show u guys the place we watch our race from..lalalala...tadaa!!!

A closer look on how inside looks like is this..thank God for his blessing that gave me such opportunity to enjoy this.

Ferris Wheel

2008-10-03T23:25:00.017+08:00

As Promised...i will continue my Singapore journey...lalalala
well...after getting on the slow motor boat...we are scheduled to ride on the FERRIS WHEEL!!!
wohoho...
We took this before leaving to board the FERRIS WHEEL!!!

then..we proceeded...n there I am..

whohoho...we are going off...!!!
Up up up into the sky....but...slowly..(cuz im afraid of heights..hehe..kiddin)

And...Wow...nice view up here...

1st view when we are going up...

but...while we are on e way up...we cant control the obsessions...so we took some nice pics of our own..hehe...

snaps.... snaps snaps...snaps snaps snaps..................................................................
whoo..the Lim Family do have nice complexion isn't it..even under the sun..hehe...OK..i know..
Shh....

Oh ya..not forgetting...to have a snap on our dearest kids...

The two lil grumpiest kids infront would b the 2 mischievious boys...
they can be real funny at times..but a pain most of the time..hehe..

Well...after all these would b..the Sceneric snaps...
As shown is the City area from the top view...followed by the back view which shows the east coast area. Part of it is under construction with regards to the upcoming Integrated Resort...
whoho...Big construction work u can see....

As u can see..this is the floating stadium...the green patches are used to be a stage for The National Day..but..now its turn into a green field..interesting isnt it..
u may ask y..
Its because...Singapore intend to hold its Tiger Cup at this lil floating field...
phew...hopefully none of the players falls off into the water...
drope...bubblish bubblish..!!!..
haha...it may turn into water soccer instead...hohoho...
smiley!!!
snaps frm another cabin...
They used to be our student..
oh man..they sure grew alot..hehe.. And this is our Preacher and "ZHU REN"..

Afterwhich, we went for lunch at YWCA..its a pity we din took any pics..as i'm having terrible gasrtic pain..sob sob sob...poor thing...snap too much..almost starve to death..
alright tts our fun n interesting teacher's day trip around Singapore..
Its a nice one...thou its boring without tt "someone" around...but its sure a experience....to have a ride on Singapore's First FLYER...hehe
cheers!

Teacher's Day outing

2008-09-22T21:11:00.011+08:00

Wohoho..finally im blogging again...been waiting for me to blog isnt it...hehe...
well...how have i been...recently just a week ago...we've been coordinating teacher's day...causing lots of confusion and trouble thinking abt it...esp our HEad...hehe...praise God we prayed and in the end the pri sch department took over this burden for us...so they came out with a outing for teacher to go have a one day tour around Singapore...hehe...
We got on the river taxi....and have a short ride around singapore...

This is our first stop...the view of before we board the river taxi....wohoho..looks nice isnt it!!
After boarding there goes our journey...muahaha...

Slowly we are then brought to the few landmarks of Singapore...

Next.......presenting..my dream Hotel!!!!!!!

THE...FULLERTON..!!!!!Then we are proceeding to....let me show you our next destination.....

wohoho..its late now...shall continue to write our teacher's day trip PART 2....

TO be CONTINUE.......

the future which behold on his mighty hands

2008-08-28T19:35:00.002+08:00

Finally..i have time to blog again...
been trying to adapt to the new working lifestyle..kinda enjoying it..
thou its tiring at time but feel so carefree!
i din knw working can make you free like this..
however its glory to God that i can finally get myself a job that satisfies all my needs..

Perhaps after this job thing is settled..its time i have to continue with my plan which i mentioned in my prayer..

To earn and save up for further studies...
Mr Goat told me...
Everything must have a plan before you carry it out..
Everything must go through a precise and careful thinking before coming to an conclusion..

I've always been doing things the way i want the way i wish..
Its been long since i last plan my money wisely...
I still remember my Bro calling me "The Steel Chicken" (which means miser)

But this "miser" seems to drift slowly away ever since i started learning to doll myself,
and now its time to have deal with every monetary matter wisely.

I pray that God will bless me with the wisdom to deal with my finance, the wisdom to ignore office conflict, the wisdom to settle everyday's work and the wisdom to face my future challenges.

Praise God, for each and every blessing he have given me for I'm really feeling very blissful with everything i have.

Thou at times, one may complain about how hard life would be but thats the process on how God really helps to strengthen your character to face life more optimistically.

my new job

2008-08-11T10:02:00.003+08:00

recently...i have been praying for a new job...a job that enables me to work..earn..learn and at the same time spend time with my family...its a long story after that few powerful prayers...

i was called in to recruit express...a recruitment agent that recommended me a part time job at Swire Pacific Offshore as a admin assistant...pay was only $7/hr...i picked up e job initially having the mindset of juz a part time job to help out my daily expenses..

my first day entering the job...ppl thr is so "high" class...in the world of their own..sitting infront of the computer...chatting once a while with one another...but look fake rather sometimes...perhaps this is the REAL world im entering..the real working world..of diff ppl with diff faces..i then was introduce to my AM...KENIX..she is nice n friendly..but i nv forget wad my dearest cousin once told me..nv easily trust anyone out working at your work place...i've been going out lunch wit her..ppl around me seems to have their own lunch mates...or otherwise they would rather be alone...

What a good exposure...to the REAL WORLD!

Pray for wisdom..n continue to trust God in bringing me through this kinda of society...however give thanks to him for he led me to a job that suits my prayer...

~GoD's BlessingS~

2008-04-07T23:00:00.003+08:00

Light blue...

cloudy imaginary...

bright and snowy white...

looking Out the window...

few hundreds feEt aboves the ground...

resting on the air craft seat is like juz sitting on the clouds floating...

staring at the clouds..praising God the wondrous creation...is just like having a chat wit our heavenly Father wit him just bedside me..

O...how great is Our Father...

Who Created such magnificent and Beautiful environment for his Children to even enjoy his creation even up in Sky..even without laying their feet on the ground..
O..how deep He Loves his Children...
How much he have prepared and Sacrifice just for US...

But instead of appreciation...
we only do more harms to it...
depleting the Environment..
And drawing ourselves nearer to our deathbed..

Oh...what have we become that we deserve all this from u...
We are so unworthy...
And yet U still love us so unconditionally..

I love u God...
Love the blessings you have for us...
Love the every little beautiful creation u have for us...
Love and appreciate each and every LOVE you shows and gave us...

I LOVE YOU FATHER..

~believing it~

2007-10-18T15:14:00.000+08:00

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;

When troubles come and my heart burdened be;

Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,

Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

my journey

2007-10-18T14:49:00.000+08:00

It's a long long journey....Till I know whera I'm supposed to be

It's a long long journey....And I don't know if I can believe

When shadows fall and block my eyes....I am lost and know that I must hide

It's a long long journey....Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent....Drifting on through empty shores

Wondering what's my purpose....Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter.... I know I will cry....I know you'll be standing by my side

It's a long long journey....And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands....I don't even know why I do the things I do

When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul....Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause It's a long long journey....Till I feel that I am worth the price You paid for me on calvary....Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes....It feel like everything is out to make me lose control

It's a long long journey....Till I find my way home to you.to you

bored..

2007-10-11T15:24:00.000+08:00

Im so bored…
So wana go shopping…wana get out of the 4 walls n have a deep breath of the fresh air outside…
So wana go for a walk…a long walk…walk till I could really feel the presence of my feet…
Perhaps we human really couldn’t be restrain in a room doing nothing...we need a breather…thou we need to take time off from the hectic lifestyle but too much may laze up a person…
Looking out of the window I could see the blue sky, green blossomed tree with birds chirping at me. Boasting off their freedom at me, “look!, we are flying away, away to places we are free to go!”
How I long to fly, spread out my strong wings to be freed flying to all places I wana go.
So tired of life, with fixed schedule to follow everyday.
Doing the same thing over and over again, following the same routine everyday. Is this what life is all about?
Organizing a schedule and follow it faithfully, going to work at 9 then lunch then knock off then home, then next morning same old thing again?
Is this what I expect for my life?
Graduating soon, still headless on where and what I wana do.
Relationship?
No idea….
Dun want to think abt it….
Future?
Obscure…
Clueless….

my life...answers to the doubts

2007-10-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

wad kinda of life would it be when everything u have turns into dust when u are gone...
wad achievements is there when everything u are after could just easily turns into nothing...
ever wonder...
wealth...power hunger...status...authority...
is all this things what life is all about?
when u are given this precious life by the creator..is this all what you really wana gain on this life time?
you may be able to work on it..but i guess...i'm just being too engrossed over it...
the people i wana mixed with...the places i wana go...the kinda life i wana lead...the high end life that i always wana have...
life isnt all about this when you just begin to learn walking...thats what i've always been...wana fly so high...so high that is unreachable....so high that God is afraid of seeing me falling...falling so badly that i may not be able to recover from it...
And he ans all my doubts...doubts that have been bothering me for these few weeks..
guidance is all i need..i am able to accept what you ans...
but pls...guide me along the learning journey...bring me to the real and exact route you wants me to go...i accepted what you say...but...soften my heart O God...so i could take it into action...but not just saying it...
i dun believe in the phrase "saying is better than done"...
with you..i believe i can get through this and walk the bright clear route laid out by you...
With my everyday prayer...
From today onwards i awaits your guidance for me each and everyday....
i surrender all...

TV phobia- belated post (should be on 27th of sept)

2007-10-06T00:01:00.000+08:00

looking at his side view...i wonder...wad's so addictive in this square box that could kept him sitting thr the whole day..i always hated this...the invention of the square box...mayb its because he always spend most of his time infront of this "square box"...doing nothing else to change the family's condition..it makes him look so useless...he seems to lost the people around him...he always enclosed himself together with the square box..he missed the chance to communicate with his close ones..they slowly drift away in his life...he do not bother much besides his addiction...he cant take his eyes off the square box and focus on something more important and fulfilling..tis is the influence i had when im a child..and i hated it...thus, i always believe if u spend 50% of ya time with the "square box" and u seems enjoying it...its time to wake up and do something thats of more worthy...do the square box promises your wealth?do the square box secure your future?will the square box ever lay the route for you?and will ever the square box ans all your problems esp the urgent problem you have right now?NO!we tried waking him up...thank God he's a little...little..juz a little better..but we pray for a better awakening..its this phobia i guess..tht i have this inferior wit people of a tv addict...i somehow have this bad feelings towards it...the feeling of despise and immediate turn off...im influenced i guess..totally........Totally.......

my life...dilemma

2007-09-23T00:49:00.002+08:00

my dreamz....
the life i am after....
is that the right route i am going...

was told today...
no matter how wealthy..
no matter how powerful you are...
one day..you will still be left wit nothing..

going after goals..
working so hard...
these are juz some stuffs to fill up the emptiness in you...

but..
isnt that supposed to be my goal in life..
if i dun put these in my life..
thn what else i am left..?

am i going too fast..?
do i have to stop and take a breather?
but....if i do...
i will be left behind..

is this the righteous way?
is this route you wants me to go?
or do i still have to take a detour?
will you bring me through this route that i really wana go
or u have other plans for me?
tell me..
ans me...
by all means...show me the way

i wonder...i wonder...
my life...my dreamz..the glimes of wealth i long..
i wonder...i wonder...

taking for granted...our appreciation...my prayer was ans..

2007-09-23T00:01:00.000+08:00

sometimes in life...we have too many previlages...too much things to be taken for granted..
have you ever wonder..when is the last time u really deeply appreciate someone for doing something for you and thank them not juz for the sake of saying but its a derivation of your deepest appreciation and its from your heart.
People always tends to forget and say things that they din really mean it..but it always ends up hurting someone else....or rather..they juz take it for granted..and things juz got vomited out without going through their mind....
And its another taking things for granted problem....
Today...im glad to hear some enlightening phrases or lessons by the pastor at my grandma place..perhaps my prayer really come through..
i always wonder...
how i am going to change my parents and bro mindset on taking christianality more seriously..its not a religion..but..its a relationship..and surprisingly..the pastor convey the ans to them totally...
telling them what they have taken for granted..and what they have over look in life..
sometimes...
when we are too busy with our own life...
we push this things behind hoping one day we wil have the time to do it...
but...who knows we have already overlook it and placed them far behind without even looking back at them till when we remember about it..then its when we faced problems...
and the "them"..is our loving father...
the one that's always there for us..and he always remembers us without treating us the same way we treated him...
regardless of all our negligences..he still promise to be there when we ever turn back stumbling looking worthlessly for him...
and thats my wish....
i will still always keep this prayer on...
waiting for the day...the day when my parents..my bro and other people that i kept in prayer to turn their back...to the right way...
and hope they wont wonder too far away...

im not forsaken

2007-09-08T12:59:00.000+08:00

"tIred but fulfilling...buSy buT enjoyinG..."
this is a new phrase...a phrase that describes my current life..
wHen u aRe living ya life to the fullest perhaps that when u will understand this phrase totally...
leArnIng new things each n everyday..
adapting to a brand new environment..
meeting new people most of the days...
gAining experiences fOr tHe future use...
i'm preparing myself...for my future that laid ahead of me..
dun wana lOoK back....
stepping into a brand new pace of life..
awaits the competition and obstacles

my future...
helding on tightly in my hand....
and i'm held firmly in God's hand....

pic took on 21st of july 2007- Love it!

2007-08-25T15:26:00.000+08:00

~sIstas foRever~

~security~

2007-08-25T14:38:00.000+08:00

i always wonder...why people are all the time so engrossed in the root of all "heartachs"...
Love!
though it brings sweetness and adds up color to the normally dull life...however..its also the master of all pains, heartachs, betrayal, sadness, sorrow, jealousy, flirts, and sufferings.
I've been into a few, but there is one that lights up my life, one that i could experience the genuine feeling of being in love. Its the feeling of undescribable sweetness, sweetness that lonesome spirit being are after.
Afterall good things dun last, it always goes off at the most cherishable moment the most memorable moment. When u are still indulging yourself in the bed of sweetness, reality somehow would wakes you up from your dream. Perhaps the fairy wonderland love story dun works the same way in real life, human being are still greedy.
Izit the real Love that people are after or its juz the companionship we need when we spent our temporary life time on earth? Human being are selfish afterall..
I'm convinced with this saying...
"There is NO such things as True Love...Fairytale dun happened in real life"...even if u are totally in love...fairytale dun juz ends after the "happily ever after"...we still live on and problems...sufferings will still be there..
I guess you can say im rather realistic but i believe, to adapt to this ever changing world, besides God Love, material satisfaction is the only one thing that can secure you without hurting you or causing heartachs. When u have no worries with living on, no worries about surviving through tml, no worries about placing your footage on the society...this then is the full satisfactory sense of security.
I admit...
I am a materialistic woman...no one else to blame but the environment i grew up in...
no one's fault...but my own mentality, my mindset..that perhaps no one is able to change it...

ThinK and AcT SMART

2007-08-25T03:15:00.000+08:00

hard work...
effort....
hard sweat...
do people actually appreciate all these...perhaps what people need isnt juz these...but people tts able to think and act smart..
is tht the working environment that we wil be going into..?
naive...and belittle...the low esteem me admit being defeated today...
i lost the real me today...all bcuz of the lazy worm in me...
people always have regrets..however...i learn sth more essential than juz tis...
to survive in the "carnivorous" society..learn to think and act smart..i guess..thts wad i lacked all these while...
alright...gotta packed up my emotions and continue my journey..
my growing up journey...the unexpecteds...full of surprises...and learning journey...knowing tt mine is much harder than others...but..i will still hang on...
people with dreams knows whr they are going...and i know...my future is within reach...its only a matter of time...
i felicia lim will hang on...and walk on...be it all obstacles..i wil pull it through..not forgetting..with the ever loving heavenly father..God...goodness and mercies will follow me through the rest of my life...

post one

2007-08-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

this is the start of a brand new journal...i juz realized there are too many things in me to be pour out and perhaps this is a great place though...